Options or Liability?

walking down the street,a bunch of friends and I get talking about our future;our life beyond college.As determined as I am about the things I want to achieve in my life, I tell me friends about how I am going to study further and then pursue a job that I love and how marriage is not one of my priorities at least for the next nine years until I am settled & successful in my own life.A friend, whose name need not be mentioned stood silently listening to me and to everything the others had planned but didn't say a word.
The reason for her silence didn't not say she had nothing planned,it was because she could not plan her own future; her silence spoke a great deal about her sadness and jealousy.Jealously that for everyone else marriage was an option but for her a liability;A liability imposed by the family and their native culture and values.While we all went on with our lives, she was going to be married to a man she has never seen before, neither does she have a choice in the man she wants.Born in to this world as a free individual,after nineteen years, she is no longer allowed to be on her own.He will become the owner of her future and her life would depend on his decisions.She can go on with her education if he agrees but getting into a job or working was no where in her cards.Why are we still in such a situation though we are in the twenty first century?
If you think deeply into it, the answer is right in front of us.We as a nation have moved physically towards liberalization but mentally most of us are still rigid.'All women are as powerful as men', holds good only in theory, but in practice it takes a long deviation.
This is a problem that cannot be alleviated by the women alone;the others around her too need equal education and awareness and need to support her and encourage her to grow.But as of now, she will still get married and I will still wait for nine years;My life has many options but her life is a liability.

When The World Goes To Sleep

 On a dark,cold night,

With the universe in deep slumber,

Silence seemed to take sight of all,

Except the old melodious hummer.

As I sit by my window,

I watch as the lights go dim,

It makes me think

About this  beautiful hymn.

The world goes quiet;

Curtains drawn and blankets tucked.

Everyone is asleep,but for me,

And the man on the street.

His music so perfect and clear,

With no disturbance anywhere near.

As the world goes to sleep,

His voice turns mysterious and deep.

On a dark,cold night,

With the universe in deep slumber,

Silence threw light,

On the old melodious  hummer.

Silhouttes & shadows

Eighteen years doesn't seem all that long to make a difference to the world let alone living life. But growing from what I was two years ago to the person I am today,making this blog entry, I've realized, life isn't only about making a difference to everyone else around us, to let them know we exist too, its about leaving your mark there effortlessly by being the person you are.
over the years I've seen myself grow so much from that crazy,immature, scared little girl into the strong person I am today.I could never stand up for myself, I'd either go back into my shell and stay there or cry if someone said something to me,Apologize for things I didn't do wrong.But you know what?As kind as that might sound, i realized it was immensely stupid saying sorry when I didn't have to.I grew up, & stood up for myself cause the bitter truth is, no one is going to stand up for you if you can't stand for yourself!
And all those other people? who are right there,behind you just to find a minute flaw & make it look like a disaster?mocking you and taunting you, harassing you for being weird or not like the rest?those people are the ones truly with the flaws,trying to make themselves look better by trying to put you down cause you do all those things that they can never imagine doing themselves either cause they were the ones who started saying it was lame or cause they are merely talentless!
Transitioning is a very hard, confusing, crazy process that most often leaves me in a tangle of my own thoughts and emotions! but one thing that I've learnt so far through everything is that no one else's opinion should tamper the person I am.Their opinions matter, but only as long as they help me grow and evolve and not snide comments or baseless remarks made only cause they felt the need to be offensive or hurtful.
Developing an ability to ignore, forgive and to let go or sometimes, if I can't do any of that to at least forget and move on, has helped me become a stronger and more confident person. And I no longer feel the need to be just another shadow,I want ot be the light that shines!

Castle!

Castle is one TV show that keeps you wanting more after every episode with its unique & smooth blend of mystery,crime & romance!I love & admire the strength & bravery of Kate Beckett; dealing with the murder of a loved one is one thing & having the strength to solve it & go down memory lane all over again is a whole new opening.
I loved Season 3( which is how much I've watched until now) but I found it a bit cliche how Castle says I Love You as soon as she's shot & he picks her up!It was one of my favourite moments of the show never the less & I can't wait to watch more! :D

Best Music ever!

Some songs that will never grow old in my world:

Far Away-nickelback
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
True-Ryan Cabrera
Breathe-Anna Nalick
Over You-Daughtry
Please Forgive Me-Bryan Adams
Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade
Valentine-Kina Grannis
Never Say Never-The Fray
I'm Your's- Jason Mars
You ane Me- Lifehouse 

Two Loving Best Friends

So there we were two best friends,
As close as friends can be,
we spoke all day,we spoke all night;
You could see all that i could see!

They took us wrong,or maybe right;
Made fun of us at every sight.
They said we were in love, as we denied
And said we didn't see beyond the naked eye!

We shared our joys & had our fights,
We shed our tears & laughed our might.
Seven months flew like speedy jet planes,
When you decide to drop your dynamite!

It was like a kiss from an angel,
Like a smile from the stars,

the best gift I could get;
A morning i'll never forget!

From that day on I became two;
one for myself and One for you.
It was the day all their taunts came true.
It was a day i thought would never fall through.

Math was all that was on my mind
But on your mind was I.
It was the day it became officially true,
You for me & me for you.

So there we were two loving Best Frinds,
Closer than friends could be.
We spoke all day,we spoke all night;
You now see more than i can see.

Skin Deep

"Beauty is in the eyes of its beholder".
So many different people come into this beautiful, mystical world of ours every single day;each one beautiful in their own way.Dictionaries define beauty as a characteristic of a person that provides perceptual experience of pleasure,meaning or satisfaction.
I feel beauty defines itself over and over again in each and every individual alive or dead. All of us are immensely gifted with beauty by nature and by beauty I don't just mean superficially, I mean skin deep.
Inner beauty is the most powerful & the most mystifying kind of beauty there could be!IF only everyone knew how to let themselves shine from what they are within, this world would be a better place.
But its not,because every single one of us is a judge;Judging every move of any one around us.Our lives are so caught up in appearances-the way we look, what we wear & how we act, that we end up forgetting to let out that inner person hidden under all those expensive clothes & make up.
Most of us are scared or unsure of letting ourselves out.Its nothing to be ashamed of, when everyone's out there to judge,we all want to leave a good impression;But then again, the world is full of hypocrites.They talk about us being weird;who gave them the right to define weird?
Being hot will earn you a million followers, but being beautiful will earn you true friends.