When The World Goes To Sleep

 On a dark,cold night,

With the universe in deep slumber,

Silence seemed to take sight of all,

Except the old melodious hummer.

As I sit by my window,

I watch as the lights go dim,

It makes me think

About this  beautiful hymn.

The world goes quiet;

Curtains drawn and blankets tucked.

Everyone is asleep,but for me,

And the man on the street.

His music so perfect and clear,

With no disturbance anywhere near.

As the world goes to sleep,

His voice turns mysterious and deep.

On a dark,cold night,

With the universe in deep slumber,

Silence threw light,

On the old melodious  hummer.

Silhouttes & shadows

Eighteen years doesn't seem all that long to make a difference to the world let alone living life. But growing from what I was two years ago to the person I am today,making this blog entry, I've realized, life isn't only about making a difference to everyone else around us, to let them know we exist too, its about leaving your mark there effortlessly by being the person you are.
over the years I've seen myself grow so much from that crazy,immature, scared little girl into the strong person I am today.I could never stand up for myself, I'd either go back into my shell and stay there or cry if someone said something to me,Apologize for things I didn't do wrong.But you know what?As kind as that might sound, i realized it was immensely stupid saying sorry when I didn't have to.I grew up, & stood up for myself cause the bitter truth is, no one is going to stand up for you if you can't stand for yourself!
And all those other people? who are right there,behind you just to find a minute flaw & make it look like a disaster?mocking you and taunting you, harassing you for being weird or not like the rest?those people are the ones truly with the flaws,trying to make themselves look better by trying to put you down cause you do all those things that they can never imagine doing themselves either cause they were the ones who started saying it was lame or cause they are merely talentless!
Transitioning is a very hard, confusing, crazy process that most often leaves me in a tangle of my own thoughts and emotions! but one thing that I've learnt so far through everything is that no one else's opinion should tamper the person I am.Their opinions matter, but only as long as they help me grow and evolve and not snide comments or baseless remarks made only cause they felt the need to be offensive or hurtful.
Developing an ability to ignore, forgive and to let go or sometimes, if I can't do any of that to at least forget and move on, has helped me become a stronger and more confident person. And I no longer feel the need to be just another shadow,I want ot be the light that shines!