It's real

It surprises me how strong I've been. Maybe I do under estimate myself after all. Looking back at my older posts and then looking at my latest one, I realize how much I over came and let go off in the past month. All those things That tore me down while erecting walls of steel around my heart;those things that I thought I could never move past, all seem a murky haze now. A phase maybe I won't forget, but a phase that I have now let go. It would be unfair if I took credit for the whole thing.The place I'm at is comforting as I see myself happy. Not for someone else, not for those around me, but happy for Me. All those wounds have healed and all the scabs are lost. He came along like an rainbow in a storm, just to fix everything. Taught me  how to love again and how to trust. Showed me sides of me I've never seen before and gave me love I've never felt before.
I see the walls crumbling to the ground and I see myself being me again. The cynic in me is lost again and I've never been more glad.
thank you for being the person you are.

Such a Panda, you.